Last year, I dreaded my birthday as it signified that a new school year was gonna reopen and synonymally, SPM.Oh, shoot.whereas my birthday this year was pretty much looked forward to as it'd mean that I've already finished my Spm and at the same time, holiday!!!^-^
Without realising it, it's already here.I thought of a celebration with my friends but my aunts and cousins who's celebrated my birthday with me every year had already planned one for me.Since it's in the form of a family gathering, which give us an opportunity to gather and have a happy meal, I wasn't thinking of ruining it by declaring,"Oh, no, thanks, I wanna celebrate with my friends," ,It'd seem too ungrateful.So, i sank into a dilemma for days and finally decided that the gathering must go on coz God knows where I might be next year and this might be the last time I celebrate my birthday with my family for years to come in the future.
Ah, and I"m so touched that some of my friends suggested a celebration for me!!T-T
Thank you..As an alternative, I asked whether you guys wanted to come out to penang on 1st Jan and we'll explore the island for one day, maybe for the last time before we all separate.I really hope you guys can come..=)
If you guys would, do text message me asap, k???
Back to last night, my mum mentioned that I'd have to accompany my grandmother for a check up at the hospital today.In my heart, I protested silently that it was my birthday and couldn't my cousin do it??But after some incidents lately, I've learnt to hold my tongue.I merely nodded and kept quiet thoughout the journey.After that, when I thought back about it, I was glad that I hadn't protested or something as it's perfectly alright to do such a thing on my birthday.Birthdays should be a day which we appreciate our family and their sacrifices, shouldn't it?I'm proud to accompany my granny to the hospital on this day, and I'm glad that I've held my tongue.Sometimes, holding back what you wanna say doesn't make you a faker or a person who's cunning or whatsoever, it gives you a second chance to think about things and saves you the time and energy to regret your wrongdoings or the words that came out of your mouth out of anger and immaturity.I guess this, is growing up.
Some weeks ago, granny was bringing us soup to the dining table and suddenly she muttered, as if to herself , and at the same time, as if to my brother and I who were sitting at the table,"Now that you've finished your SPM, it won't be long that you leave here for your studies, and when that time comes , no one else would hold my hand when we walk outside anymore.."
Finishing her sentence, she croaked a gentle laugh.I've always been the one who waited for my granny when we walk on the streets as she walks slower than the others due to old age.And I'd always hold her hand, just like how she held mine when I was a little child.Indeed, who'd hold her hand now?I held back the tears in my eyes and gulped down more rice.Tsk, why do my tears come out so easily??Lolz.
*makes mental note to include that in new year resolutions*
Yes, it's my birthday and I'd like to thank my family for all the things they have done for me throughout these 17 years and for the years to come.As for my friends, I appreciate your friendship and I hope that we'll stay friends forever and ever.=))
And at last, happy birthday to me.